Don’t Be Careless, Just Care Less
People are too much, let’s be realistic here. It’s as simple as that. People give too much of a shit about things that shit should not be given to. In the grand scheme of life, and even in the short term view that most people carry, people stress out far too much on minor details and issues they think are important. But they’re just not, and it severely affects people. I would go so far as to argue that the stress you feel from finishing that 2% assignment is more detrimental to your health and well being as a person then actually losing that 2% completely is. Stress affects you, and stress builds into bigger things, the 2% assignment just means that the highest mark you can get in the class is now a 98. Big deal.
I’ve seen it happen to a lot of people are me, and it’s happening to people around me right now. You become consumed. Consumed by stress, consumed by details, consumed by nothing. You become infinitely conscious of everything going on, and have no time to sit back and enjoy where you’ve gotten in life. Do people even sit back and enjoy the fact that they’re in Queens Commerce? Not many. I know personally that my friends and I sit back, smoke weed, and say to ourselves, “holy hell, I can’t believe I’m actually in one of the best programs in one of the best schools. we made it, we did it.” We appreciate the fact that we’ve accomplished something great with our lives, that we worked towards a goal and got there. Some of the people are so stressed about being in the program that they don’t appreciate where they actually are. And I feel bad, I want to help them realize who they are, and how great they’ve done. But there’s not much that I can do, I’m just the funny looking kid who writes a lot and doesn’t talk very much. Maybe theyll read this, or realize it for themselves.
But this applies to everyone, not just my school. Life is not a competition. You get no prizes for doing the best, you can only enjoy it as it comes at you. You can only lie down on your death bed, look back on your life and say, “I did exactly what I wanted to do, right when I wanted to do it.” Don’t give me this garbage about you have to go to school now to be successful, no you don’t! Plenty of successful people now didn’t go past high school. I’m in school because I want to be here, and am happy to be here. It’s not an academic contest, it’s not a fashion contest, not a beauty contest nor a personality contest. There’s no grading scheme to life, no gold stars. Just you and your experiences. You don’t need anyone else but yourself really. So are you doing what you want to do, are you who you want to be?
I’m not saying through your life away and go follow a bands world tour around Europe. Unless, you know, that’s really what you want to do in your life. Then go for it. I’m saying never, ever fret the small things. They’re literally not worth your the or all the effort you’re going to put into it. Don’t be careless, it’s good to care about things, to show emotion, and to enjoy experiences; just care less, let things not be perfect, hand in something late, skip class! The only person who has the entitlement to scorn you in yourself. Don’t take negative shit from anyone, just make sure that you’re living u to the expectations that you’re setting for yourself. You are accountable to yourself.
I know there’s always a recurring theme in my posts. And I’m sorry if they sound repetitive to you, but I write about I think. And quite frankly, I see a bunch of people everyday who I believe aren’t doing what they actually want to do. They certainly aren’t enjoying their time at that moment. If you read my other post about how I changed my outlook on life, I did a bunch to just help my energy. I walked into my boring ass 8.30 am class this morning supercharged and ready to go, I made jokes with the prof and was attentive for the vast majority of the class. Looking around, I knew other people were there on minimal hours of sleep, hair messy, sweats, and I wondered why they even bothered to show up. Is like 0.5% you’re going to mess up on your final because you missed this class really enough reason to come to class. Get a few hours of extra sleep, feel refreshed and get on with your day. It’s not taboo. It’s not illegal. It’s a healthier choice.
People dress conservatively. People talk respectfully to people who are rude to them. People do their hair the same way all the time. I don’t know, maybe people are happy like that and I’m the one who thinks that people need to change. But I am so confident that if societal values were taken down that people would be different. People would dress crazy and talk crazy and look crazy. I’m sure of it. But people are scared to now, scared to try new things, scared of being out of the crowd. Stop it. Live your goddam life and enjoy every second of it. If you’re not enjoying it its not worth doing. I’m talking about school work as well. I don’t mind doing assignments, so I do them. You should never lead a life where you’re in a constant state of being. Just existing. You are not here to exist. You weren’t like one in a gazillion sperm that won the egg race just to pop out 9 months later and walk around blending in. You are here to do great things, and to be a great person. Don’t be careless, just care less Why not start right now?
